Spaghetti
Its been crazy time since I switched continents. Going through so many different moods, ideas, contemplations, I am here yet to completely realize what I am getting myself into. So many things happened in one go, its hard to believe! It sounds fun sometimes and yet another moment its all chaos.
Just few months back, I was relaxing in my cozy little room, happily watching 2-3 movies everyday. My day used to begin with xkcd/reader and a cup of coffee and end with joox. Sometimes I used to fear if this is going to land me in trouble. So, when I got done with school, I was happy to get a little busy! Ahh! But how busy?? Since then I feel I am just running! Marraige, Job, House hunt, settling....There was absolutely no time to just wait and think a bit. Everyday was a mission day!
Some days were really easy, no struggle, no headaches! All the things used to fall in place somehow. Those nights I used to have a blissful sleep! On the contrary some days were meant to try my patience! How much ever I try to be calm and composed, some or the other thing would go wrong and would leave me scratching my head in frustration!
Sometimes I used to just feel confused and full of doubts. Whats happening? Is this worth it? What next? With so many new faces around me, I used to just wonder like a lost kid. Reactions just happened but inside I felt there's a spaghetti of thoughts, trying hard to unwind. Joy, fear, curiosity, anxiety, confusion all in one pack! It used to drive me crazy!
But gradually things are under control I guess! I am settled up both at work and at home. There's more that I want to do on the home front, decor, furniture etc. But I'll do it piece by piece at my own pace..no hurry! Hush! Finally can break for a while! Hopefully thoughts will also!
Later when I'll think of last 2-3 months, I think I will have a good collection for a refreshing laugh!
Just few months back, I was relaxing in my cozy little room, happily watching 2-3 movies everyday. My day used to begin with xkcd/reader and a cup of coffee and end with joox. Sometimes I used to fear if this is going to land me in trouble. So, when I got done with school, I was happy to get a little busy! Ahh! But how busy?? Since then I feel I am just running! Marraige, Job, House hunt, settling....There was absolutely no time to just wait and think a bit. Everyday was a mission day!
Some days were really easy, no struggle, no headaches! All the things used to fall in place somehow. Those nights I used to have a blissful sleep! On the contrary some days were meant to try my patience! How much ever I try to be calm and composed, some or the other thing would go wrong and would leave me scratching my head in frustration!
Sometimes I used to just feel confused and full of doubts. Whats happening? Is this worth it? What next? With so many new faces around me, I used to just wonder like a lost kid. Reactions just happened but inside I felt there's a spaghetti of thoughts, trying hard to unwind. Joy, fear, curiosity, anxiety, confusion all in one pack! It used to drive me crazy!
But gradually things are under control I guess! I am settled up both at work and at home. There's more that I want to do on the home front, decor, furniture etc. But I'll do it piece by piece at my own pace..no hurry! Hush! Finally can break for a while! Hopefully thoughts will also!
Later when I'll think of last 2-3 months, I think I will have a good collection for a refreshing laugh!
posted by zero-state at 10:18 PM
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